Just letting out my thoughts about that boy,

So i'm sitting here listening to Love Story By Taylor Swift, and of course, there's this boy racing through my mind while i'm hearing her say, "You be the prince, and I'll be the princess, its a love story baby just say yes." But its not just any boy, its A boy who i've liked, some would say love, for over three years now. We started liking each other in middle school, and my feelings for him have grown ever since and even now, they're not stopping. So i'm going to tell you about how it all started.
Nothing happened in middle school, his best friend told me he chickened out on asking me out. Which now thinking made me really sad. i really liked this kid. We talked almost every night beginning of freshman year. (We go to different schools now.) and then in December of my freshman year, currently a sophomore, he was with the same best friend and "they" called me and he had his friend tell me that "he never liked me as more than a friend." His exact words.
I cried all damn night. I thought about him every second of the day. I never thought i'd get over him...then four or five months went by with no contact and i was dealing just fine, well almost... Then one day he messaged me on myspace and then we started talking a lot again.
One night in December, we were talking until in the early morning. During this talk, we got very deep, he was telling me how much he loved me and everything, and of course i was ecstatic. I loved him too. Everything seemed to be going perfect.
A couple of weeks after that, everything came crashing down. We talked until the early morning like usual, and then he had heard something about me that was true, and when i told him about how much of a mistake i had made, he replied back, "IM GONE" and i just crashed and broke. I called my best friend at 2 in the morning, because i just didnt know what to do. I couldnt seem to think, i got dizzy, i cried until my throat hurt. (This mistake happened in those four or five months where we didnt talk.) and then he finally messaged me back after an hour and said, "look im sorry, for not forgiving you right away..i forgive you im not going to let this ruin our relationship i love you , one question do you think i should trust you? or would you trust me if i did this." and from that moment, i felt like he really IS the one for me.
We went to Silverwood with a few friends and was really sick that day and didnt have any fun because of it. When we got back, we didnt talk for three days, and then all the sudden he said i was too shy and didnt like me anymore..so once again, i fell down.
We were being bitches to each other for the rest of the summer. Then one day in October, he started liking me again and i had once again, another chance..but that fell through also...
Then i started going out with this other boy who was known for being a player. He warned me and told me he didnt want me to get hurt and said I love you, which surprised me because he had a girlfriend too, but i said it right back because its the truth. Then of course, he stopped liking me.
It's just one LONG roller coaster, and i'm so tired of going through it. I really do love him still to this day, and I miss him..
Right now, its one of the times where we don't even really talk...this is slowly going to kill me eventually. and no i'm not talking literally, but emotionally, this is the hardest thing i've gone through my whole life. I never thought i'd be one of those love sick girls or those who would give anything to be with a boy. At least not starting when i was like what, 13 years old?